31 October 2014

Happy Halloween

It's Friday, October 31.....



28 October 2014

Rough start

Today is my bday and I should be happy, but I feel meh. I don't like birthdays, I don't like dreary weather, and the holidays get me down. I'm in a funk and just want to go back to bed. I don't want to deal with anyone. I am truly not feeling happy and I want to cry.
I know I need to suck it up and put on my game face but I am so not in the mood.
Today is going to be a long day. Maybe everyone will leave me alone.

27 October 2014

Too much at one time

Feel like hell
weather has changed and feels dreary
Dark in the morning
My birthday
All alone
Feel fat
Feel sad
Suffer from OCD and anxiety
Introvert who overextends myself
Hard on myself
Can't keep doing this
Something's gotta give...

New Weather ... Old Demons

I love autumn. My favorite season. So pretty. So fresh. So crisp.

But my depression seems to act up about the same time. It's great outside but I get lost in my own mind. Trapped. A victim. 

I'm struggling with this right now.

22 October 2014

That one person

Ever had that one person in your life who turns you on?

They make you laugh and smile. With them, you step outside your comfort zone, knowing you're safe.

They bring out a side of you that people don't expect... Or maybe understand.

20 October 2014

Pencil thin Barbie dolls

My family is made up of pencil-thin, pretty Barbie dolls. They have had two kids and four kids. And they are still a size 4-6. What's up with that?

It's depressing. So they are pretty... And thin... Have nice houses... And are happily married.

How do they stay so thin? I an envious of them and how they look.

If only I could be even thin and pretty...

Work and Marriage

How do you work with your spouse when you are separated?

It just seems like it would be tough. 

I guess it is possible unless you are the only two employees. In my ex-husband's case.... That was us. It was us... And it was hard enough when we were married.

I know a couple going through it right now... They work in different departments but the interaction between the two represented departments can be either all or nothing... Depending.

She is fairly high maintenance. She would rather socialize than do actual work. She would be better as a volunteer doing socialization than doing her job.

It's frustrating. I can see why companies frown on hiring couples.... Since there are more separated and divorced than getting along. No need to add more stress and drama to the workplace!

I guess we will see but I don't think it's going to work. She does not do her job, she loves to socialize, she likes being around the guys in the department, and her dress is less than professional.

If only we can see where it's going to go... 

This should be interesting...

15 October 2014

Bad day

My day has been rough
Not really happy
Want to disappear
How about another glass of wine
Hate myself
Not happy

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