tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353850472024-03-13T10:32:54.633-05:00{Welcome to} Tere's (never quite "normal") WorldJust my own little (yet not quite) "normal" world... yet honest and true... my bizarre thoughts and delusions... my happiness or frustration... all here... in one place... my place... along with the tiny voices in my head!! :)
It's never been truly Normal, so why the hell start now??Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.comBlogger681125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-19592503416058708832014-11-16T15:48:00.001-06:002014-11-16T15:48:35.370-06:00WeatherLast night it snowed.<div><br></div><div>It's amazing how waking up to snow, with an overcast sky, can make a difference in your mood. A not so good difference...</div><div><br></div><div>This is my first winter with my new car, so it's like riding without training wheels for the first time.</div><div><br></div><div>Last night it snowed enough to be slippery. The salters didn't get out before I had to pick up my son from work so I was very cautious. Even a sheriff was wondering. Nope, no texting, no talking, not even any singing... Just watching the road and getting a feel for the new car. </div><div><br></div><div>Too much stress... Burned me. It's amazing how concentrating so hard can make you melt down.</div><div><br></div><div>I was exhausted by the time I got home last night.</div><div><br></div><div>This morning it had kind of froze so stress day 2. Ugh. Not impressed.</div><div><br></div><div>Then woke up late, ran late, had to be in three places at once, doing 2 things at a time, keeping track of three people, and trying not to melt down... I did, tears fell... Quietly... Softly... I dried them as they fell so no one would notice.</div><div><br></div><div>I could use a hug about this time. Just to know that things will be alright.</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-21434510616430044182014-11-11T20:01:00.001-06:002014-11-11T20:01:01.715-06:00Special someoneHe came into my life around 7 years ago.<div><br></div><div>We met online and hit it off.</div><div><br></div><div>He is someone very special and makes me feel complete.</div><div><br></div><div>Have you ever had someone like that in your life?</div><div><br></div><div>When you find someone who makes you feel complete, cherish them and enjoy every moment.</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-1338324202693511102014-11-07T20:27:00.001-06:002014-11-07T20:27:52.371-06:00Sweet!!Went to work out tonight.<div><br><div>There is a guy there who is a sweetheart... And cute.</div><div><br></div><div>When I left, he asked if I'd be there tomorrow. I told him "no but maybe Monday". He then replied with "Tuesday. See you Tuesday".</div><div><br></div><div>Sweet!!! Made my night!!!!! 😋</div><div><br></div></div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-46790615094377160442014-11-06T11:24:00.001-06:002014-11-06T11:24:45.936-06:00Fat day clothesWoke up feeling bloated. Which is soooo not cool.<div><br></div><div>Wearing my "fat day" clothes.</div><div><br></div><div>Anyone else have those?</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-9587324013141304462014-11-04T11:35:00.001-06:002014-11-04T11:35:42.923-06:00Things Mama Always Taught Me...DO NOT discuss RELIGION<div><br></div><div>DO NOT discuss MONEY</div><div><br></div><div>DO NOT discuss POLITICAL</div><div><br></div><div><br></div><div>Apparently people have forgotten that.</div><div>I haven't, so don't ask me....</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-62145185944524737082014-11-01T15:54:00.001-05:002014-11-01T15:54:59.140-05:00True HappinessComes from withinTerehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-17915830956482292472014-10-31T06:55:00.001-05:002014-10-31T06:55:09.942-05:00Happy HalloweenIt's Friday, October 31.....<div><br></div><div>HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!!!</div><div><br></div><div>🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻🎃👻</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-72659918959104580902014-10-30T22:24:00.001-05:002014-10-30T22:24:22.569-05:00Old habitsAre hard to break<div><br></div><div>No matter how old </div><div><br></div><div>Or how bad</div><div><br></div><div>Or how painful<br><div><br></div><div><br></div></div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-91403086469854161122014-10-28T06:41:00.001-05:002014-10-28T06:41:46.519-05:00Rough startToday is my bday and I should be happy, but I feel meh. I don't like birthdays, I don't like dreary weather, and the holidays get me down. I'm in a funk and just want to go back to bed. I don't want to deal with anyone. I am truly not feeling happy and I want to cry.<div>I know I need to suck it up and put on my game face but I am so not in the mood.</div><div>Today is going to be a long day. Maybe everyone will leave me alone.</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-35718219533462007572014-10-27T20:20:00.001-05:002014-10-27T20:20:18.648-05:00Too much at one timeFeel like hell<div>weather has changed and feels dreary</div><div>Dark in the morning</div><div>My birthday</div><div>All alone</div><div>Feel fat</div><div>Feel sad</div><div>Suffer from OCD and anxiety</div><div>Introvert who overextends myself</div><div>Hard on myself</div><div>Can't keep doing this</div><div>Something's gotta give...</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-30756356875296005562014-10-27T07:47:00.001-05:002014-10-27T07:47:45.388-05:00New Weather ... Old DemonsI love autumn. My favorite season. So pretty. So fresh. So crisp.<div><br></div><div>But my depression seems to act up about the same time. It's great outside but I get lost in my own mind. Trapped. A victim. </div><div><br></div><div>I'm struggling with this right now.</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-61428169135048173282014-10-22T04:46:00.001-05:002014-10-22T04:46:59.211-05:00That one personEver had that one person in your life who turns you on?<div><br></div><div>They make you laugh and smile. With them, you step outside your comfort zone, knowing you're safe.</div><div><br></div><div>They bring out a side of you that people don't expect... Or maybe understand.</div><div><br></div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-1599151688431434702014-10-20T22:14:00.001-05:002014-10-20T22:14:11.176-05:00Pencil thin Barbie dollsMy family is made up of pencil-thin, pretty Barbie dolls. They have had two kids and four kids. And they are still a size 4-6. What's up with that?<div><br></div><div>It's depressing. So they are pretty... And thin... Have nice houses... And are happily married.</div><div><br></div><div>How do they stay so thin? I an envious of them and how they look.</div><div><br></div><div>If only I could be even thin and pretty...</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-3349639180832689282014-10-20T22:10:00.001-05:002014-10-20T22:10:35.499-05:00Work and MarriageHow do you work with your spouse when you are separated?<div><br></div><div>It just seems like it would be tough. </div><div><br></div><div>I guess it is possible unless you are the only two employees. In my ex-husband's case.... That was us. It was us... And it was hard enough when we were married.</div><div><br></div><div>I know a couple going through it right now... They work in different departments but the interaction between the two represented departments can be either all or nothing... Depending.</div><div><br></div><div>She is fairly high maintenance. She would rather socialize than do actual work. She would be better as a volunteer doing socialization than doing her job.</div><div><br></div><div>It's frustrating. I can see why companies frown on hiring couples.... Since there are more separated and divorced than getting along. No need to add more stress and drama to the workplace!</div><div><br></div><div>I guess we will see but I don't think it's going to work. She does not do her job, she loves to socialize, she likes being around the guys in the department, and her dress is less than professional.</div><div><br></div><div>If only we can see where it's going to go... </div><div><br></div><div>This should be interesting...</div><div><br></div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-23766419802720526312014-10-15T20:56:00.001-05:002014-10-15T20:56:31.528-05:00Bad dayMy day has been rough<div>Not really happy</div><div>Depressed</div><div>Want to disappear</div><div>How about another glass of wine</div><div>Hate myself</div><div>Not happy</div><div><br></div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-49452799457106544992014-09-07T20:50:00.001-05:002014-09-07T20:50:42.463-05:00I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!Right now I'm struggling and really do hate myself. I am in a funk and can't shake it. I am a miserable piece of shit and want to disappear!!!Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-27054496122247062642014-08-26T06:54:00.001-05:002014-08-26T06:54:27.577-05:00Hitting this fall hardNever did anything but one of the walks for breast cancer. Just did a 5k mud run (kinda). And have signed up for 2 more 5k walks, a 10k, and next years 5k mud run.<div><br></div><div>My trainer went off to school so I am on my own. Need to get my ass in gear and JUST DO IT!!!!</div><div><br></div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-51525896396236760142014-08-24T14:14:00.001-05:002014-08-24T14:14:05.146-05:00Makeup and dress upI have a dinner to attend tonight. I'm dressed up (new dress), with makeup , my hair is down, and I got dressed, feeling pretty.<div><br></div><div>In the last hour, I suddenly don't feel as pretty. I look at myself in the mirror and am not happy with who I am. I feel like I suddenly am fat and ugly. I'm alone DND sad.</div><div><br></div><div>I hard events where I feel alone. All by myself.</div><div><br></div><div>All alone... And ugly....</div><div><br></div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-33001849218411443872014-08-12T18:31:00.001-05:002014-08-12T18:31:06.343-05:00Me and FoodI am hungry, but that is normal.<div><br></div><div>I look in the fridge.... We have a fridge (and freezer) full of food, but I can't bring myself to eat it.</div><div><br></div><div>It's not bad for me... It's just that I can't mentally get past calories, fat, and carbs. </div><div><br></div><div>I feel as though I'm going back to a bad place with my eating habits. I can't get out of my own head.</div><div><br></div><div>I hate how this feels... And these demons have a strong hold on me. I can't seem to shake them.</div><div><br></div><div>I'm trapped in my own thoughts.</div><div><br></div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-9482466770591587502014-08-10T20:50:00.001-05:002014-08-10T20:50:54.531-05:00E.D. Or D.E.?I know I have issues with food. Wouldn't necessarily say I have an ED (eating disorder).... I have more of DE (disordered eating).... Which, in my opinion, are different!<div><br></div><div>Anyone lead out there fighting head demons?</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-64135323139925666352014-07-31T11:33:00.001-05:002014-07-31T11:33:24.243-05:00HowHow can I lose weight and still be lumpy?Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-39134888873521952192014-07-23T12:22:00.001-05:002014-07-23T12:22:55.945-05:00It's strange...I dyed my hair... She died her hair<div><br></div><div>I am going back to school and earned my degree and and recognition... She decided to go back to school.,,</div><div><br></div><div>I work with a personal trainer at the gym... She started working with a trainer at her gym...</div><div><br></div><div>Is this just wierd or what?</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-62279748032350729042014-06-26T18:26:00.001-05:002014-06-26T18:26:41.486-05:00Random<br><div class="separator" style="clear: both;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMBsXlAEJaISqzwaFKNSajuq-f46oJpoJKdSQ35nB4_VmsekZOvcdxDTvCGAiTs1uAgWzV86gXk3qD487EDFO14g1UBNy46wg-t785q3RXWVDuHhQtUOYIpOR8_P8Knfw_1W6a/s640/blogger-image-1162257108.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjMBsXlAEJaISqzwaFKNSajuq-f46oJpoJKdSQ35nB4_VmsekZOvcdxDTvCGAiTs1uAgWzV86gXk3qD487EDFO14g1UBNy46wg-t785q3RXWVDuHhQtUOYIpOR8_P8Knfw_1W6a/s640/blogger-image-1162257108.jpg"></a></div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-48322383318687197102014-06-16T23:32:00.001-05:002014-06-16T23:32:24.314-05:00Why?I look at photos of pretty girls. I look at photos of toned and muscular females. I look at women in bikinis.<div><br></div><div>I wish I could look like them. I hate how I look. I am not pretty or sexy.</div><div><br></div><div>I feel like a piece of shit.</div><div><br></div><div>Why??</div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-35385047.post-21491602577208256062014-06-15T22:47:00.001-05:002014-06-15T22:47:58.576-05:00DifficultHolidays of any type are hard.<div>Next week will he 5 years since I list my brother. Today is Father's Day and I miss my dad my ex has left my sons life so he doesn't get Father's Day. </div><div>I look at photos of pretty, thin, sexy women and feel so entirely fat, ugly and disgusting. I want to disappear. I hate how I feel. I wish I could find happiness but I am struggling so hard.</div><div><br></div>Terehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14011823055232232731noreply@blogger.com0