Weather

Last night it snowed.

It's amazing how waking up to snow, with an overcast sky, can make a difference in your mood. A not so good difference...

This is my first winter with my new car, so it's like riding without training wheels for the first time.

Last night it snowed enough to be slippery. The salters didn't get out before I had to pick up my son from work so I was very cautious. Even a sheriff was wondering. Nope, no texting, no talking, not even any singing... Just watching the road and getting a feel for the new car. 

Too much stress... Burned me. It's amazing how concentrating so hard can make you melt down.

I was exhausted by the time I got home last night.

This morning it had kind of froze so stress day 2. Ugh. Not impressed.

Then woke up late, ran late, had to be in three places at once, doing 2 things at a time, keeping track of three people, and trying not to melt down... I did, tears fell... Quietly... Softly... I dried them as they fell so no one would notice.

I could use a hug about this time. Just to know that things will be alright.

Special someone

He came into my life around 7 years ago.

We met online and hit it off.

He is someone very special and makes me feel complete.

Have you ever had someone like that in your life?

When you find someone who makes you feel complete, cherish them and enjoy every moment.

Sweet!!

Went to work out tonight.

There is a guy there who is a sweetheart... And cute.

When I left, he asked if I'd be there tomorrow. I told him "no but maybe Monday". He then replied with "Tuesday. See you Tuesday".

Sweet!!! Made my night!!!!! 😋

Fat day clothes

Woke up feeling bloated. Which is soooo not cool.

Wearing my "fat day" clothes.

Anyone else have those?

True Happiness

Comes from within

Old habits

Are hard to break

No matter how old 

Or how bad

Or how painful

Rough start

Today is my bday and I should be happy, but I feel meh. I don't like birthdays, I don't like dreary weather, and the holidays get me down. I'm in a funk and just want to go back to bed. I don't want to deal with anyone. I am truly not feeling happy and I want to cry.

I know I need to suck it up and put on my game face but I am so not in the mood.

Today is going to be a long day. Maybe everyone will leave me alone.

That one person

Ever had that one person in your life who turns you on?

They make you laugh and smile. With them, you step outside your comfort zone, knowing you're safe.

They bring out a side of you that people don't expect... Or maybe understand.

Bad day

My day has been rough

Not really happy

Depressed

Want to disappear

How about another glass of wine

Hate myself

Not happy

I HATE MYSELF!!!!!!

Right now I'm struggling and really do hate myself. I am in a funk and can't shake it. I am a miserable piece of shit and want to disappear!!!

Me and Food

I am hungry, but that is normal.

I look in the fridge.... We have a fridge (and freezer) full of food, but I can't bring myself to eat it.

It's not bad for me... It's just that I can't mentally get past calories, fat, and carbs. 

I feel as though I'm going back to a bad place with my eating habits. I can't get out of my own head.

I hate how this feels... And these demons have a strong hold on me. I can't seem to shake them.

I'm trapped in my own thoughts.

How

How can I lose weight and still be lumpy?

It's strange...

I dyed my hair... She died her hair

I am going back to school and earned my degree and and recognition... She decided to go back to school.,,

I work with a personal trainer at the gym... She started working with a trainer at her gym...

Is this just wierd or what?

Random

Why?

I look at photos of pretty girls. I look at photos of toned and muscular females. I look at women in bikinis.

I wish I could look like them. I hate how I look. I am not pretty or sexy.

I feel like a piece of shit.

Why??

Mentally stressed

I keep looking at photos of thin, pretty women and wishing I could look like them. I want to be thin and pretty, or at least thought of as kinda sexy. I wish I had someone to hold me and cuddle with me, but I'm having no luck. I'm depressed and lonely. My sister is coming up town and I haven't seen her for a couple years. I have lost a considerable amount of weight since I saw her last, but I am not where I wish I was. I need to lose more weight. I am not thin enough or pretty enough. I am so upset with myself right now. I feel fat and ugly, homely and alone. What is wrong with me?

Hitting a wall

Mentally i am done.

I have hit the brick wall and am stuck.

Today is so... So.... UGH!!

Ugh

I know I don't feel good because I really haven't eaten much.... But I haven't eatenuch because I don't feel good.

Meh....

I m losing weight, which is good. That's my goal but I feel exhausted and my mood is really kinda low. Just not happy with everything and part of me doesn't feel like it cares. I hate this cold dreary weather too. It messes me up too. Thank goodness it's Friday. Tomorrow I can sleep in.... Wish me luck on that... Body will be awake by 6am. Oh well.

random

I have a question...
Do people pick out and focus on other peoples flaws because they, themselves, are insecure?

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