Battling food again

Have a down slide. Not really hungry, don't feel like eating, even my mom is on my case. Not up to eating. Know I should but just not for it. Feeling fat. Although I am still down 50+ lbs since November 2012, I feel the need to lose more because I feel fat and depressed. Been battling a sinus infection so it's been hard to work out so I am missing the gym. I need to get back at it....

abusive behavior

Just random. I had a good friend tell me that my mom is abusive to me, verbally and mentally. It caught me off guard. I guess I never really thought about it. I guess she is but since I've lived this way for so long that I don't see anything wrong. Just goes to show how people get so comfortable with what is going in around them that they don't really know what's "right" or "wrong".

The more I think about it, the more I see her point. My mom treats me like I'm 20, she still tells me what to do, she lays guilt trips on me, and other stuff.

I don't know if I will ever find a happy point with her because  with everything I've done, I don't think she's ever said "good job" or "congratulations". Other people seem to come before family.

This whole conversation has me know thinking...

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ugh

When I'm tired, I'm crabby. When I'm cold, I'm crabby. When I'm late, I get crabby. When I have to wait, I'm crabby. When he raises his voice, I get crabby.

And, like the saying goes... "when momma ain't happy, no one is happy"... too bad people just don't get it!!!

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