Work and Marriage

How do you work with your spouse when you are separated?

It just seems like it would be tough. 

I guess it is possible unless you are the only two employees. In my ex-husband's case.... That was us. It was us... And it was hard enough when we were married.

I know a couple going through it right now... They work in different departments but the interaction between the two represented departments can be either all or nothing... Depending.

She is fairly high maintenance. She would rather socialize than do actual work. She would be better as a volunteer doing socialization than doing her job.

It's frustrating. I can see why companies frown on hiring couples.... Since there are more separated and divorced than getting along. No need to add more stress and drama to the workplace!

I guess we will see but I don't think it's going to work. She does not do her job, she loves to socialize, she likes being around the guys in the department, and her dress is less than professional.

If only we can see where it's going to go... 

This should be interesting...

My own little world

I am enjoying my new job. Things are great. Everyone is awesome. I am Working out at the gym, trying to step out of my comfort zone. I am training with a trainer from an NBA team. Let me tell you.... He knows how to kick my ass. But I appreciate it. He makes me work. I appreciate it.... He is totally sweet... And a real cutie! ;). I still work with wine and gourmet foods... And I am still going to school. I am tired, but I'm still moving!

 

in which I am slacking

Since I started my new job three weeks ago, my blog has been neglected. I need to get settled in to a new routine. These last 3 weeks have been starting at 7am, but now we are back to 8am. Eventually I will catch the swing. The good news is that I LOVE the job. Now I just need to schedule homework, blogging, and exercise... And I should be back on track.

The Hardest Thing I Ever Did…

It wasn't until a few weeks ago that I had to do a very difficult thing.

After over six years at my job, and making many friends, I decided it was time to give my notice and move on to bigger and better things.

I grew so close to those in my world, my friends, my coworkers, my confidants, my support system. I felt so close to everyone and there were times when they were there to support me when my world seemed to drop down. I felt so close to them, but things had changed. I started feel more threatened, in my own mind, and left hung out to dry, that I felt it was time to do something because the miserableness I felt started to never let up. I even had to have my medicines regulated to add an additional depression med, to bring me out of days that seemed to truly take the lift out of me. It was hard getting to that point and difficult to function when feeling that way. I would spend hours at work and then be so beat by the time I got home that I could barely function, not to mention, I couldn't sleep because my mind wouldn't shut down. It was all adding up... in the negative. It has been a while and I had been looking for other options, but nothing would show up. I continued to live with my stress and anxiety, hoping that something would come along. I lived my life and continued to do what needed to be done. 

Finally, all things suddenly happened and my world changed in a matter of a week. From 0 to 60 in the blink of an eye. It moved so fast and I caught the ride. I took it on. Something new, something exciting. I gave my notice, stressed myself out, cried myself to sleep, worried, wondered, doubted myself, questioned my ability to handle change, and all the other anxiety-based actions.

This past week was my first week in my new routine. So many changes, so many differences. I made it through the week, it was great. Several people told me I seemed more happy and less stressed. I was smiling, I enjoyed going in, I didn't stress too much about the new stuff because they are training me.

The most difficult thing I had to do was make the decision to start a new chapter in my life, at age 42, as a single full-time mom, while going back to school to get my Bachelor's Degree.

I hate change.... hate it, hate it, hate it. Nope, can't make me... uh uh... no way...  but I did it. I sucked it up and did it... and lived!

And am finally happy!!!!!!

new job

So, this week I started my new job.

It's totally opposite of what I had. They have the whole company take breaks and lunch together. It's strange, after Working a job where I worked thru lunch or went out alone. I didn't get formal breaks.

I enjoy it though, its nice to be able to relax three times a day.

My job is great, everyone is so nice, and I believe I have made the right decision.

it is finally official

I did it. My notice has been given. I just have to count down to the next step.

My manager was kind of a smartass about it and he said some insensitive things.

Piss me off. I think he's just made I'm leaving him. He hasn't trained the others, so I see a train wreck in his future.

Oh well, he's the boss... And he's in charge!

If this doesn't get better... we are gonna have issues...

Off yesterday afternoon.

Come in this morning and our email server is down.

No one in IT is up, awake, or in the office, so my tasks are, yet still, at a flipping stand still. Our server is not in this building (which I can definitely say) but... not even in this state, actually I can honestly say that I am not sure which of the other three states is actually IS in.

Either way, I have tried calling them all... and no one is in yet.

SUCKS!

This has been a long week. People on vacation. One in an accident and in the hospital. One person going back to school, one retiring.

Nothing like mass chaos and confusion.

I seriously wish I could have stayed in bed this morning.

Gotta wonder... is this right... or am I just mistaken?

I am confused... help me here...

I work full-time. I have been back with this company over six years. I have not once been given an actual review... which is normally required for performance and raises... right?

Anyway, last week, I finally got my review... or should I say a Review"? Then again, maybe my first review? Okay, so... mind you, it's the middle of July... the year is 2012. My review covered January to December... the year 2011. Are we behind or what?

I am not sure about this, but since we have a new owner, we are all expected to have reviews. And then, the meeting started with "this review is for 2011... and you have come a long way since then... the statements in these areas are stock, based on the job... I did not write these... I give a rating of 1 to 5 and the system puts in the statements, so they do not accurately reflect what I want you to see..."  Okay, one more time here... is this wrong... or am I just really confused?

How do you honestly work this way... and keep staff morale up to a level where they don't want to tell you to go to hell?????

fingers crossed... wish me luck

Applied for a new job. Need a change. Got a call back in under 24 hours.
Love my boss, but no respect. Have not had a "required" review in the last six years and 2% raise doesn't pay the bills.
Either step up to the plate or forget it.
More to follow, hoping for the best...
Keep me in your thoughts and prayers.
Love you guys!

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"Do as I say... NOT as I do..." Yeah right!

Remember that saying "Do as I say and not as I do"? Well, that is getting pretty old... and still over-used.

I am constantly reminded that I must follow what he says, and not what he does. Too bad he taught me bad habits oh so many years ago! Anyway, right now, I am struggling with this "identity" thing. Today something came in and there was no information on it. We just went through this whole pile of BS about making sure that everyone is in the loop so we all know what is going on in case anyone is out. Well, two are out, nothing has been said, but one said "they do it that way all the time" and then said "well, check with this person, as she was talking with them". Okay, so where does that fit into the outline of keeping everyone in the loop?? Trust me, the minute I don't keep everyone informed, I get my hands slapped. WTF? This is truly a two way street... too bad I'm kicked to the curb and everyone else gets the passing lane!

Reality - stress - work - stress

today bothered me... and so did she!

She had to open her mouth... (surprise!!)  She basically told me I made a big mistake. At that point, I was faced with an overwhelming urge to bitch slap her, but I didn't. I was mature and said nothing! I so badly wanted to smack her, but I didn't.

I refrained from letting my "Ms. Nasty" out!

Next time she might not be so lucky!

WHATEVER!!!!

Ya know... when a boss leaves the building, shouldn't he let the dept know that he is going? In case something important comes up? Nope, not this one. Leaves, tells one person (who doesn't tell anyone unless asked), and that's it.

It is coming up on lunch time. I have to figure what I am going to eat... but I have personal training tonight, so I need to eat something decent... and I truly need to get the "f" out of this place today.

Pent up anxiety and stress... so not good. Life will get better... can't get much worse... I can do this...

 

Venting Monday...

Came in to work this morning. Our main phones lines are down... our IT person only seems to be around part-time, working whatever hours fit into her schedule... she does not have a company cellphone, so no one knows how to reach her.

No one can get through since the phones aren't working.

Makes for an issue to enter orders, wouldn't you say?

I guess maybe I just get frustrated over stupidity, but COME ON PEOPLE!!!!

WHY SHOULD IT BE SO DAMN DIFFICULT????

Coffee Withdrawl... why is it MY responsbility????

Okay, so, we are on the final week of this month... and I can't be happier... I cannot wait for this month from hell to go away...

Yesterday the coffee pot broke... well, it didn't really "BREAK"... it just quit working properly. They came to me to call the repair guy. So I did.

Mind you, I don't drink coffee... so I did my "duty" and called for service.

Considering we have a bldg full of engineers and production people who live with an IV attached to their arms, filling the constant requirement for caffeine...

Yesterday was rough... they were already starting to show symptoms of withdrawl. It was NOT a pretty site... and then, when I came in this morning... at 6:30am (mind you... BEFORE my day even officially starts)... I was advised that the coffee machine was STILL broke.

Okay. Yeah. So?

There's a vending machine in the lunchroom... oh yeah, you would have to PAY for it then... and I am sure there are tons of gas stations and Starbucks along the route to work also... oh, but wait... you would have to PAY for it there also!

Anyway, I got three hits this morning about the machine being down. I really wanted to tell everyone EXACTLY what was on my mind... but I didn't. I bit my tongue... and called service... again... for a second time... and then again for the third time.

I was at the point that if I heard "when will the machine be fixed" or "I can get a new coffee company in here tomorrow", I was ready to scream. (As if tomorrow will work... withdraw anxieties are already setting in today... by tomorrow everyone might be dead!)

The poor service guy made it, I met him at the door. He smiled and apologized, he was out yesterday (obviously the dispatcher did not know that... which leads to the whole communication issue... but let's not get me started on that!).

He fixed it and no one bothered him or stood over his shoulder. As he left, he smiled, I said thanks... and sent a message out to the world that the coffee machine was fixed. It was like a parade of ants to a picnic... lining up to get their daily fix... 

Maybe change is on the wind...

For any of you people who follow me, you notice that occasionally (okay, so recently more occasionally that not), work has been a major stressor in my life. The whole situation, the attitudes, the stress, the tension, the stupidity, the lack of money, the lack of appreciation, the inability for people to say "please", "thank you", and "good job", yadda yadda yadda....

Okay, well, I have done some checking and have a meeting coming up.

Part of me is scared shitless, and the other part is nervous, yet excited.

I have a possible opportunity, but I am so used to my comfort zone that it's stressing me out just as much as the current stress.

I know it might be a big change, if it goes through, yet I don't want to leave anyone hanging, so I probably should look at dotting my I's and crossing my t's right away, in case...

Wish me luck, I'll keep you posted... but I wanted to share this with someone... and you are it!!!!

Today

I am having such a hard time concentrating today. My mind is racing and I am cold. I am normally warm, but here I sit, in a sweater and a cardigan. I can't seem to concentrate or focus. My head is jumping all over and I can look at something and it isn't making any sense. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do next. This has been a long week. I think it's the fact that my body is finally having a meltdown from the stress of this week. There is too much going on in my mind to keep me moving forward without tripping over my own feet.

Exhausted

Last night, after yesterday's insanity, I couldn't think straight. My brain was swimming and my eyes were swimming in the sockets. I got home, tried to do homework, but that failed... I couldn't comprehend anything. I had a glass of Chardonnay and was in bed, sound asleep my 7:30pm.

Me and stress don't always see eye-to-eye. It kicks my ass and then takes me down.

There comes a time when things have to change... and I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel and possible change on the horizon. Keeping my fingers crossed.

One person - get in line!!!!

Today is one of those type of days.

I am one person. I cannot be everywhere at once. I have two ears... only one if I'm on the phone. I know your voice over the phone when you say hello, but I am really hoping you aren't calling to ask for help. I can only finish one thing at a time... Right now I have at least a dozen going and NOTHING done. I understand it's an emergency... but it'll have to wait. You really need to ask WHY I am on anxiety and stress meds??? I know you asked me for that... it's on my desk... somewhere. When I find it, I'll get to it, and then I'll let you know. Yes, I am working on it. No, I don't know when it will be done. No, I don't have any idea. I know you need it NOW. It'll have to wait until I get done with yesterday's emergencies. Yes, I got your email, it's about 20 down in my inbox. I can only do one thing at a time... and do it right.

Mondays are tough

Today has been a rough day. I haven't felt like myself.

I kinda feel like I've been left hanging today.

One day you are there for me and then next you aren't.

I know you have bad days like I do, so I can understand if you are facing one of those.

I only wish I knew. But I won't. I am not going to ask.

I guess I will leave it like it is and hope tomorrow is better.

I miss you.