Bad Day Yesterday

He took the two of them to lunch and left me alone behind - without saying a word. Glad I am so invisible.

I was sooooooo angry when they left, I started to cry. I wanted to scream and hollar. I literally wanted to punch something, really really hard!!!! I was so enraged that I was ready to explode. So angry that I was shaking. I don't normally get like that... and I haven't been that way for a LONG time, but it scares me because I know I can do some major damage to anyone who gets in my way!

The crying helped, but the anger and jealousy is still there.

Not getting better!

I can almost guess he is taking her to lunch. If he does, I will lose it!

Aarrgghh!

Now he's making a point of talking to me. I think he knows I am pissed!

VENT

When she's here, I am dogshit!

I am PISSED!

WTF? Why? Ass! He can go straight to hell and rot there! To hell with all of them!!

GUYS!

Why does guys tend to look for and fall for the ones that are really pretty or hot, but they may be dumber than a stump??? What is it? Is it an easy score? I don't flippin' understand! WTF???????

Threatened

Why do other women threaten me? Am I so insecure? Is it because I've been hurt so many times before? I hate this!

A missed opportunity

Have you ever gone back and wondered if you missed something that might have been?

Today's technology

Did you know that technology can destroy people? When I was younger, we didn't have internet, computers or cell phones. Now, there is too much technology b.s. He said she said, verbal abuse, bullying, so much!

I have to bite my tongue

Part of me wants to tell you "see what I go through - now you know how I feel" but I am going to just keep my mouth shut.

Why do I feel so threatened when people try to help me? Why do I feel like he would rather have her down here instead of me? Am I a thorn in his side? Am I someone who doesn't fit in?

What the hell is wrong with me? Why do I take such offense? Is it just me, or is it that I have been hurt so many times that I have no ability to openly trust people?