fat and a failure

I bought a body detox kit. Ten days of this stuff and I feel like hell. Fay and bloated. Gross.
Now what? My vacation is just a couple weeks away.... now Im depressed.

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today is a bad day

Long weekend, with constant running. tired and ready to collapse. This morning was rough. The whole days started going down the tubes. And just kept going. I hate days like this.

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fat and depressed

Yep, another day feeling like this. Today's episode was brought on while sitting in church. She was so thin and muscular. I wish I could look like her. Yes, she does have a smaller frame than me... and she is shorter.... she is a runner... and she is younger... but I would love to have a body like hers. I am depressed.

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feel like hell

Not up to anything today. Feel like hell - fat, miserable and ugly. Hate myself and everything about me. What is wrong with me? I am so frustrated and confused. Why do I feel this way? I want to get a tattoo on my lower back but feel too gross and miserable to do it. I am determined this is my life...

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food - my enemy

I get a craving for something like a big sloppy Burger or fries with Cheddar cheese, which I don't eat but one or two times a year. But then I think about it and deny myself because I know it is full of fat and calories!

I am terrible. I look at fat and calories before I splurge ... so I don't. Is this self-denial or self-destructive?

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bad food

I gave into a craving. Its been so long since I had the subway seafood sub. I bought it, I ate it, it was soooooo good, and I do feel guilty, but tomorrow is a new day!

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todays post

Feeling fat, ugly, and oh so gross! Just want to pull the covers back over my head and cry!

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miserable day

Woke up this morning, feeling fat and gross. The weather has changed and now I feel like hell, my body aches, my sinuses are stuffed up, and my head is going to explode! I want to just go back to bed and collapse!

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not up to par

I am exhausted and not feeling like it is worth anything. Have you ever felt down, wanting to cry, just overly unhappy? I am stressed and frustrated, angry and depressed, lonely and confused. Why do I feel this way? What is wrong with me?

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frustrated

I am so frustrated with myself. I want to hide in a hole and disappear. Life so totally sucks right now.

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