17 October 2011

What ‘cha doin’?


Ok, so that is a routine question in my house… and it is not primarily from Phineas and Ferb… it is from my son – a teenager with obsessive tendencies. He has to be in the middle of things and can hear a conversation from across the room, but can’t seem to hear me from across the kitchen table when I ask him to use his fork, not his fingers, or to use his napkin, not his pants.
I spend all day at work, trying to get things down on the computer and answering the phone. I get enough interruptions and distractions. The last thing I want to do is come up, with good intentions of going on the computer and accomplishing something other than work, school, or church. I used to have a social life, I used to facebook, I used to tweet, I used to blog, but lately, distractions keep me sidetracked. I love my child, but it really bugs me when I am trying to do something and he is continually coming in and asking “What ‘cha doin’?” Or, even worse, stands over my shoulder to see what I am doing. I know that if I did that to him, he would flip a gasket! And when it isn’t him, it’s Grandma. Yes, she does the same thing. She has no clue on computers or the internet, but standing over my shoulder is her part-time job apparently.
Sometimes, I even wonder if the cats have the same thoughts? Especially as they stand on top of me and stare down at me, with that “look” on their face.  Can you imagine your cat staring down at you and suddenly saying “What ‘cha doin’?” Yep, I can!!!! (If you knew my cats, you would think so too.)
Why can’t a girl get some time alone? Oh yea, trust me, even the bathroom is not a sacred place… no one needs it until I am in there, nor does anyone want to talk to me until that same time. Maybe that is why the cats hang in the bathroom with me when I’m getting dressed or taking a bath? For the seclusion? Who knows… maybe.

13 October 2011

stressed

Okay, lost it today. Second time in 2 weeks, but this meltdown was open to the public. I was so upset!!!!

I felt like I had been openly attacked verbally and it pissed me off. I put my faith in someone I trust and bust my ass to work hard... and he kicks my knees out from under me.

I don't handle that well. I can hold my own, and trust me, I am one bull-headed english-woman who doesn't take shit when getting pushed.

The worst part about the verbal attack in front of over half-dozen peers, is that the response was "I don't understand why you are taking this so personal?"

I almost snapped right then and there!!!!
Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

11 October 2011

Long day... now what?

I have spent a very long day at work, in front of of computer, accomplishing pretty close to nothing! I just felt burnt. This is a week of only one or two slow downs, otherwise I am flying wild! I can't keep doing this and something has to give.
I am going on vacation in a few weeks and I am supposed to bring a swim suit... ewwwww! Okay, so I feel fat and gross. I tried a detox cleanser and I feel like hell. I came home tonight and ate dinner. The dinner was gross and tasted like hell. Now I am having a glass of wine... so time to go to bed...
Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

10 things NOT to ask your spouse…


Let’s see, I’ve been married and divorced… so this should be a rather easy list, but then again… (this is not in any specific order…)

1. Can you please pick your dirty clothes up off the floor?
2. When are you going to mow the lawn?
3. Can I borrow some money?
4. Do we have to have pizza again tonight?
5. When you spill, can you please clean it up?
6. What time will you be home?
7. You spent HOW MUCH?!
8. Do you really need another tool?
9. Can you please take out the garbage?
10. What would possess you to do something so stupid????

08 October 2011

fat and a failure

I bought a body detox kit. Ten days of this stuff and I feel like hell. Fay and bloated. Gross.
Now what? My vacation is just a couple weeks away.... now Im depressed.
Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

19 September 2011

today is a bad day

Long weekend, with constant running. tired and ready to collapse. This morning was rough. The whole days started going down the tubes. And just kept going. I hate days like this.
Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

04 September 2011

fat and depressed

Yep, another day feeling like this. Today's episode was brought on while sitting in church. She was so thin and muscular. I wish I could look like her. Yes, she does have a smaller frame than me... and she is shorter.... she is a runner... and she is younger... but I would love to have a body like hers. I am depressed.
Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

02 September 2011

feel like hell

Not up to anything today. Feel like hell - fat, miserable and ugly. Hate myself and everything about me. What is wrong with me? I am so frustrated and confused. Why do I feel this way? I want to get a tattoo on my lower back but feel too gross and miserable to do it. I am determined this is my life...
Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4
Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...