it is finally official

I did it. My notice has been given. I just have to count down to the next step.

My manager was kind of a smartass about it and he said some insensitive things.

Piss me off. I think he's just made I'm leaving him. He hasn't trained the others, so I see a train wreck in his future.

Oh well, he's the boss... And he's in charge!

Trust? or Not to Trust? That is the question

I trusted you. I thought you were my friend. But you proved me wrong.

You made me so mad. I told you my secret and you couldn't keep your mouth shut.

I felt like we were close enough to confide in you, but I guess I was wrong.

I am angry and totally betrayed, yet relieved in a funny sort of way.

I am not sure who all you told, or even what you told them. I want to confront you, I want to know why, but I can't. No, actually, I WON'T. It is so not worth it. Why should I get upset? You saved me the trouble of telling people. But guess what, those that I want to tell, I will, personally. Those who don't need to know, I don't need to tell... and won't. Leave them wondering why I didn't say anything.

I have learned, that I cannot trust anyone... well not really anyone... but there are a few. Anyway. It is now knowing that those around me don't respect me enough to keep something so important to me, quiet, then I guess it's time to move on. Which is the next step in my life and my changed.

For those who know me...

I will forgive.. I will never forget though.

I am nice... but not that nice.

If this doesn't get better... we are gonna have issues...

Off yesterday afternoon.

Come in this morning and our email server is down.

No one in IT is up, awake, or in the office, so my tasks are, yet still, at a flipping stand still. Our server is not in this building (which I can definitely say) but... not even in this state, actually I can honestly say that I am not sure which of the other three states is actually IS in.

Either way, I have tried calling them all... and no one is in yet.

SUCKS!

This has been a long week. People on vacation. One in an accident and in the hospital. One person going back to school, one retiring.

Nothing like mass chaos and confusion.

I seriously wish I could have stayed in bed this morning.

it's a not so exciting day

Today I didn't babysit, she was sick.

I did business law homework, laundry, dishes, hardboiled eggs, and made tuna salad.

I took a nap and pulled articles from old magazines.

I have colored my hair and ate dinner.

My life is changing so I even worked on my resignation letter (more to come once its public).

Now I'm having a glass (or two) of Chianti and have watched: You've got Mail, First Wives club, Under the Tuscan Sun, and now Bottle Shock.

Guess its back to homework...

Gotta wonder... is this right... or am I just mistaken?

I am confused... help me here...

I work full-time. I have been back with this company over six years. I have not once been given an actual review... which is normally required for performance and raises... right?

Anyway, last week, I finally got my review... or should I say a Review"? Then again, maybe my first review? Okay, so... mind you, it's the middle of July... the year is 2012. My review covered January to December... the year 2011. Are we behind or what?

I am not sure about this, but since we have a new owner, we are all expected to have reviews. And then, the meeting started with "this review is for 2011... and you have come a long way since then... the statements in these areas are stock, based on the job... I did not write these... I give a rating of 1 to 5 and the system puts in the statements, so they do not accurately reflect what I want you to see..."  Okay, one more time here... is this wrong... or am I just really confused?

How do you honestly work this way... and keep staff morale up to a level where they don't want to tell you to go to hell?????

Taking a break

It's been a time since I have done any substantial postings. There has been so much going on.

The weather here has been unbearably hot... and I HATE hot weather. I would much rather have it sub-zero and wearings 40 layers of clothes. When I get warm and uncomfortable, I become... to be completely honest... a TOTAL BITCH!!! Heat and I do not see eye-to-eye and it is NOT my friend. I can only take so many clothes off and I still hate it.

I have been doing school work, so I am stressed. My son is on a trip, so I am lonely. I have a cat going through separation anxiety, so he has my sleep pattern is totally screwed up because he wants attention and then lays there and "cries" to me (at 2:30am, 3:30am, etc). The heat is taking it's toll on my mom, so I worry about her because she is stubborn and bullheaded (no idea where I get those traits from). I am still "in search of..." and that is still a slow and painful process... and I am getting frustrated there too. It's like everything thing. AARRGGHH!!!

I just haven't felt like me and don't feel like doing anything. So I am on a mental break... and a physical exhaustion. With the heat this past week, hitting the 90s and 100s, I have been to the gym twice and that was it... it is too damn hot to do that. The small pool in our backyard is even registering at 95-deg, so to hell with that being comfortable either.

Thank goodness it's Friday... I am ready to curl up and sleep the weekend away.

Hope everyone has had a good week. I will see you soon... with a better attitude... as soon as this heat breaks...

 

snack...

Peanut butter and sliced banana, sprinkled with granola.

Yum.... :)

my new recipe experiment

* Quinoa

* 3 egg whites

* Cubed chicken breast

* Spinach

* Grape tomatoes, sliced

* Fat free feta cheese

I beat 3 egg whites and put them in a pan. I then added the cubed chicken breast, scrambling the eggs as they cooked.

Once almost done, I moved all the egg into the middle of the pan and then placed the spinach and quinoa around the outside, heating it up and breaking down the spinach a little.

As the spinach started to cook down, I mixed everything together in the pan. I added the sliced tomatoes (I use the grape because they are small and not overly juicy). The tomatoes add some acid and then I mixed in the crumbled feta. The feta adds the "bite".

I don't cook too much longer, only to marry the flavors.

I put onto a plate and add a little more crumbled feta on top.

**MY FIRST COOKING "EXPERIMENT" WITH QUINOA... AND I THINK IT TURNED OUT PRETTY WELL... AND IT WAS FILLING**

99 Questions... my "premade" bucket list

My life in 99 questions

I've seen this floating around. I personally snatched it from Ducky at BATCRAP CRAZY. I thought I'd join in the fun! The idea is that you go through this list of 99 things and mark off what you have done.

(Probably the closest I'll get to a "bucket list"... did anyone truly specify that they can't be premade?????)

1. Started your own blog

2. Slept under the stars (It doesn't matter that it wasn't all night does it?)

3. Played in a band

4. Visited Hawaii

5. Watched a meteor shower

6. Given more than you can afford to charity

7. Been to Disneyland (Disneyworld count?)

8. Climbed a mountain

9. Held a praying mantis

10. Sang a solo

11. Bungee jumped

12. Visited Paris

13. Watched a lightning storm

14. Taught yourself an art from scratch 

15. Adopted a child

16. Had food poisoning

17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty

18. Grown your own vegetables

19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France

20. Slept on an overnight train

21. Had a pillow fight

22. Hitch hiked

23. Take a sick day when you're not ill

24. Built a snow fort (at least gave it a shot)

25. Held a lamb

26. Gone skinny dipping

27. Run a Marathon

28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice

29. Seen a total eclipse

30. Watched a sunrise or sunset

31. Hit a home run

32. Been on a cruise

33. Seen Niagara Falls in person

34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors

35. Seen an Amish community

36. Taught yourself a new language

37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied

38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person

39. Gone rock climbing

40. Seen Michelangelo's David

41. Sung karaoke

42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt

43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant

44. Visited Africa

45. Walked on a beach by moonlight

46. Been transported in an ambulance

47. Had your portrait painted

48. Gone deep sea fishing

49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person

50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris

51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling

52. Kissed in the rain

53. Played in the mud

54. Gone to a drive-in theater

55. Been in a movie

56. Visited the Great Wall of China

57. Started a business

58. Taken a martial arts class (have a black belt to prove it!!  :)

59. Visited Russia

60. Served at a soup kitchen

61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies

62. Gone whale watching

63. Got flowers for no reason

64. Donated blood, platelets, or plasma

65. Gone sky diving

66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp

67. Bounced a check

68. Flown in a helicopter

69. Saved a favorite childhood toy

70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial

71. Eaten Caviar

72. Pieced a quilt

73. Stood in Times Square

74. Toured the Everglades

75. Been fired from a job (laid off/fired same effect) (laid off)

76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London

77. Broken a bone (as a matter of fact... I did it break dancing!!)

78. Been a passenger on a motorcycle

79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person

80. Published a book

81. Visited the Vatican

82. Bought a brand new car

83. Walked in Jerusalem

84. Had your picture in the paper

85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year's Eve

86. Visited the White House

87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating (if a fish counts)

88. Had chickenpox

89. Saved someone's life

90. Sat on a jury

91. Met someone famous

92. Joined a book club

93. Got a tattoo

94. Had a baby

95. Seen the Alamo in person

96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake

97. Been involved in a law suit

98. Owned a cell phone

99. Been stung by a bee

Bu the looks of it... I have quite a ways to go...

I am still alive... yes...

It has been a long week (or so) and I just haven't had the thought process to write.

Sorry.

I have been busy with school and work.

I am also still venturing to find something new to do with my life and go in a different direction. The last post... I thought I had something, but... like the old saying goes "if it seems too good to be true, it probably is"... and it was, I am sorry to say. I didn't get the "warm fuzzies" and my intuition was pretty much right... I reported it as a scam.

Oh well, back to the starting point. (totally sucks though!)