Have you ever been around people with personality defects? The kinds that are never happy, never have anything positive to say, never offer compliments/ please/ thank you, feel people should do for them before they do for others...
Just my own little (yet not quite) "normal" world... yet honest and true... my bizarre thoughts and delusions... my happiness or frustration... all here... in one place... my place... along with the tiny voices in my head!! :) It's never been truly Normal, so why the hell start now??
16 November 2013
abusive behavior
Just random. I had a good friend tell me that my mom is abusive to me, verbally and mentally. It caught me off guard. I guess I never really thought about it. I guess she is but since I've lived this way for so long that I don't see anything wrong. Just goes to show how people get so comfortable with what is going in around them that they don't really know what's "right" or "wrong".
The more I think about it, the more I see her point. My mom treats me like I'm 20, she still tells me what to do, she lays guilt trips on me, and other stuff.
I don't know if I will ever find a happy point with her because with everything I've done, I don't think she's ever said "good job" or "congratulations". Other people seem to come before family.
This whole conversation has me know thinking...
13 November 2013
ugh
When I'm tired, I'm crabby. When I'm cold, I'm crabby. When I'm late, I get crabby. When I have to wait, I'm crabby. When he raises his voice, I get crabby.
And, like the saying goes... "when momma ain't happy, no one is happy"... too bad people just don't get it!!!
argue... or not....
27 October 2013
a dilemma
I have a close friend who decided to move out of her house and separate from her husband of 8 years. They have a 6 year old child.
She "needs her space" but there is s guy (who just got divorced) who is a lost puppy and had set his sights on her.
Problem is... he doesn't know when to stop, stay away, or listen. His presence is causing much awkwardness, along with tension from her husband, in front of their child.
I am close with her but I don't like how she's handling this whole situation since both herself and the guy are trying so hard to find something they feel has been missing.
I don't want to be s bitch, but its awkward.
I don't know what to do or say.
15 October 2013
grrrrrrrr
My day has totally sucked. I'm pissed and frustrated. Things went from bad to worse.
Want to crawl under the covers and hide.
today
Today is name-dropping, talking loud, and talking on the phone with a mouthful of food.
Its very difficult for an obsessive compulsive to work for a micro manager.
Long day!!!!!
11 October 2013
uhhhhhh.... ummmmm...
Back in school, I remember when teachers would measure how many times you used these words in a conversation
How professional is it NOT when a person calls a customer and uses those words 15 times (I counted) in a 5 minute voice mail message????
04 October 2013
how?
How does someone chew gum and talk at the same damn time? Do that not understand its not meant to be done?
15 September 2013
friendship
My BFF and I got together today for grilling out, sipping good wine, and catching up on the last two months of busy lives. We both had so much to talk about but I let her run with the day. There were so many things I wanted to talk about and bounce off her, but I didn't.
Here I am, still thinking, trying to make sense of things, but oh well... I am not one to steal the show of dominate a conversation, so I guess I'm used to it.