Ugh

I know I don't feel good because I really haven't eaten much.... But I haven't eatenuch because I don't feel good.

Meh....

I m losing weight, which is good. That's my goal but I feel exhausted and my mood is really kinda low. Just not happy with everything and part of me doesn't feel like it cares. I hate this cold dreary weather too. It messes me up too. Thank goodness it's Friday. Tomorrow I can sleep in.... Wish me luck on that... Body will be awake by 6am. Oh well.

Struggle today

I'm pacing and my mind is wandering.

This morning my son called me out on the calories I watch and that he is aware that I don't eat enough.

It's been hard. I am mentally struggling with do much right now. I don't feel good and that doesn't help.

I know I will be fine but I am having issues internally.

My mom called me out on the calories the other day and today my son did the same thing.

I don't feel like I'm starving but my family does. I wish I could understand all these feelings.

Battling food again

Have a down slide. Not really hungry, don't feel like eating, even my mom is on my case. Not up to eating. Know I should but just not for it. Feeling fat. Although I am still down 50+ lbs since November 2012, I feel the need to lose more because I feel fat and depressed. Been battling a sinus infection so it's been hard to work out so I am missing the gym. I need to get back at it....

random

I have a question...
Do people pick out and focus on other peoples flaws because they, themselves, are insecure?

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pain to power... good or bad

I have a problem.
I take something that has caused me pain and hurt, stewed on it, dwelled over it, and then used the festered anger to drive a power.
I use it to make myself do things. To force me to suck it up. To push myself to limits... healthy, safe, or not.
I can't explain it but its pain that lingers inside with nowhere to go. I use it to drive me, to push me, to fuel me.
Am I the only one who has these driving forces?

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happy?

I want to be happy
but sometimes its hard.
I feel lost and alone
Not sure where to turn.
Sometimes you just can't
seem to trust anyone
Because when its good for them
They will turn on you in a heartbeat.
So much for happy...

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wind from your sails

Have you ever felt like things are going well but suddenly....woosh.... things are not what they seemed. Why is it that its more than okay for one person but not for someone else? Its amazing how seniority can cause the winds of change. I guess in business it happens. But really? I guess I can just sit quietly and mind my own business... but I will catch hell for that too.

Just stressed. Sorry. Had to vent!

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wanna be a kitty cat

I just ate lunch. I've got a snuggly sweater on... now give me a spot where the sun is pouring through the window and I am all over this "curl up in a ball and take a nap" thing!!!!

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holiday anxieties.... again

Thanksgiving has come and gone and, once again, my mood is down.

I have trouble with these holidays and they seem to bring me down.

I am confused.

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