30 June 2011
29 June 2011
28 June 2011
Why do I have to deal with this? I try to phrase my questions in a way that doesn't get me yelled at. I can't seem to win. I hate feeling like this. Why do I need to watch what I say and how I react? My son is pushing my buttons and I am ready to scream but I bite my tongue!
I used to have a quiet place to go, to think, but that has changed. The car isn't quiet - I need to call with my whereabouts. The bubble bath isn't quiet - there are knocks on the door, someone always seems to need to get in. So I have (currently) narrowed it down to the tanning bed - music loud, phone off, 15 minutes for me... too bad my brain won't shut off! This sucks!
I get dressed up for you, to make you smile, but I was obviously mistaken. You don't seem too concerned or even seem to care. I guess I don't matter anymore. Should have known you would go back with her. What have I done to lose you like this? Right now I am so stressed and angry that I want to get mad and scream. I want to hate you but it is hard. Why me? What have I done?