My "new" phase and the struggles within

I have to admit that it's been 5 months since I started this "awakening" to become a better me... physically and mentally.

It's been tough. Physically, I have lost weight, I have cut down on the junk I'm eating, I have made valiant efforts to be at the gym regularly (including holidays).... Mentally, it's all a matter of mind over matter. I need to keep an eye on what I am doing and know what is right and wrong...

But I have to admit... I am struggling... every day I find myself battling my past demons. The demons of my ED, the demons of mind over matter, the demons of what I need to do. It hurts and it's a struggle.

I thought I had this licked, but not completely... obviously. I am enjoying this new part of me.

I just wanted to admit it.... I will post more later.

another day...

I got to the gym tonight. I walked at break. I watched my food. I know what I need to do and how to do it. Problem is keeping on track. My son struggles, but he doesn't seem to comprehend. It hurts me to see him struggle, but many time NOT help himself.
I guess I need to take it to extremes.... Gotta do what I've gotta do... I'm a mom....