banquet

Went to a banquet tonight. Didn't want to go but no choice.

I chose my salad (which I would have been fine with...) But I had rice with some beef (but not enough according to others). I went to the table and eat.

Mom growled that she thought I was hungry... And I hadn't eaten all my beef.

First... I was working on my salad (which would have been fine except mom paid for dinner) and the beef was salty (although she swears it wasn't).

I just wanted to come home...

I then was handed a square of cheesecake.

Oh please! Grrrrr. I ate part of the chocolate off the top, the raspberry gel and a few bites of the cheesecake. Too rich. Done.

I finally came home.... Feeling absolutely miserable and gross! I so do not want to so that again!

Ever felt...

Have you ever felt like you don't get the credit you deserve?

How often do you accomplish something totally awesome and you are so happy you are flying, but no one seems as excited as you? You want to scream from the mountain tops and tell the world, but there is something inside you that doesn't crave for the attention, at least not outright. To have someone just say "good job" or "congratulations" would mean more than anything, but the ones you truly wish to hear it from never say it. And sometimes it seems like the more they DON'T say it, the more they take advantage of you?

arguments you won't win

Have you ever been blind-sided by a "conversation" that comes across as a directed phrase, with an overtone of argument? It's one of those where you are damned if you do or damned if you don't... respond to the "statement". I already know I'm doomed, so why fight it. No matter what I say (or don't say), the tone will be wrong, or there will be some type of attitude attached.  No matter what, I am wrong, she is right, and that is that! And I know, that if I were to say what I want to say... I might as well write my life off now!