26 June 2014
16 June 2014
15 June 2014
Holidays of any type are hard.
Next week will he 5 years since I list my brother. Today is Father's Day and I miss my dad my ex has left my sons life so he doesn't get Father's Day.
I look at photos of pretty, thin, sexy women and feel so entirely fat, ugly and disgusting. I want to disappear. I hate how I feel. I wish I could find happiness but I am struggling so hard.
07 June 2014
If you look at those I follow on Instagram, it's a lot if fitness and things like that.
I look at the photos and wish I could look like them. I wish I could be sexy. I wish I could be happy.
I am having struggles right now.
01 June 2014
I keep looking at photos of thin, pretty women and wishing I could look like them. I want to be thin and pretty, or at least thought of as kinda sexy. I wish I had someone to hold me and cuddle with me, but I'm having no luck. I'm depressed and lonely. My sister is coming up town and I haven't seen her for a couple years. I have lost a considerable amount of weight since I saw her last, but I am not where I wish I was. I need to lose more weight. I am not thin enough or pretty enough. I am so upset with myself right now. I feel fat and ugly, homely and alone. What is wrong with me?