26 August 2014
Never did anything but one of the walks for breast cancer. Just did a 5k mud run (kinda). And have signed up for 2 more 5k walks, a 10k, and next years 5k mud run.
My trainer went off to school so I am on my own. Need to get my ass in gear and JUST DO IT!!!!
24 August 2014
I have a dinner to attend tonight. I'm dressed up (new dress), with makeup , my hair is down, and I got dressed, feeling pretty.
In the last hour, I suddenly don't feel as pretty. I look at myself in the mirror and am not happy with who I am. I feel like I suddenly am fat and ugly. I'm alone DND sad.
I hard events where I feel alone. All by myself.
All alone... And ugly....
12 August 2014
I am hungry, but that is normal.
I look in the fridge.... We have a fridge (and freezer) full of food, but I can't bring myself to eat it.
It's not bad for me... It's just that I can't mentally get past calories, fat, and carbs.
I feel as though I'm going back to a bad place with my eating habits. I can't get out of my own head.
I hate how this feels... And these demons have a strong hold on me. I can't seem to shake them.
I'm trapped in my own thoughts.
10 August 2014
I know I have issues with food. Wouldn't necessarily say I have an ED (eating disorder).... I have more of DE (disordered eating).... Which, in my opinion, are different!
Anyone lead out there fighting head demons?