Had my meltdown the other day. Felt fat and gross. Then had cravings and the scale went up. Meltdown. I stressed and wanted to die. I wanted to purge. I was full of anger. Instead I stumbled and fell into an old anger release... but I feel better. It was too much salt. I don't like any of those feelings... anger. Frustration. Stress. Hopelessness. Sad.