Just my own little (yet not quite) "normal" world... yet honest and true... my bizarre thoughts and delusions... my happiness or frustration... all here... in one place... my place... along with the tiny voices in my head!! :) It's never been truly Normal, so why the hell start now??
15 February 2013
My weight loss journey
In November we did a monitoring to keep everyone (who wanted) accountable over the holidays... I totally rocked those 3 months!! Woo hoo.
In January, my gym started a body challenge for 3 months so I am going with that.
I am feeling awesome and my clothes are getting big. I am down over 30 pounds and am thrilled! I want to lose another 30 to reach my ideal weight... So I'm going to keep plugging along.
For once in a long time, I feel good. I still can't say that I like my body, but I am working on accepting it. I guess thats a one day at a time thing.
I am learning to grow and growing by learning.
Another day
This week I am wrapping up week 2 of my college Econ course and am doing okay.
My new job is still awesome (there are a few glitches, but that's to be expected). Everything is good and the people are totally cool.
My son got his braces off... So now we pray he doesn't lose the retainers!
I got back into working out and eating right. My weight is down and I am happy, although I know it's not low enough for my mind. My struggle is the weight, working out, and being thin... All while consciously trying not to fall back into my eating disorders. That is my struggle.
Anyway.... Things continue to move forward and that is good. One day at a time is all I can ask for.
Hope everything is well with each of you, as I apologize for being away, but I think of you often. It's just hard with the new routine. Oh we'll, that'll get easier also I guess, over time.
09 February 2013
but I DO eat..
I just eat differently than everyone else in my family.
I watch calories, fat, carbs, sodium, and protein. I know what I can/cannot have and I know what works for me.
I limit breafs and pasta but might have a few crackers.
I limit alcohol... And don't really miss it.
My candy is sugar free and I eat frozen yogurt.
I do eat, but because I don't eat the way my mom cooks, it isn't right... But that's why I have lost weight and she now has a fatty lump.
I am going to continue eating my way. I get my vitamins, I get my veggies, I get my protein... I just don't take in excess fat, calories, or sodium....
Honest, I do eat....