it is finally official

I did it. My notice has been given. I just have to count down to the next step.

My manager was kind of a smartass about it and he said some insensitive things.

Piss me off. I think he's just made I'm leaving him. He hasn't trained the others, so I see a train wreck in his future.

Oh well, he's the boss... And he's in charge!

Trust? or Not to Trust? That is the question

I trusted you. I thought you were my friend. But you proved me wrong.

You made me so mad. I told you my secret and you couldn't keep your mouth shut.

I felt like we were close enough to confide in you, but I guess I was wrong.

I am angry and totally betrayed, yet relieved in a funny sort of way.

I am not sure who all you told, or even what you told them. I want to confront you, I want to know why, but I can't. No, actually, I WON'T. It is so not worth it. Why should I get upset? You saved me the trouble of telling people. But guess what, those that I want to tell, I will, personally. Those who don't need to know, I don't need to tell... and won't. Leave them wondering why I didn't say anything.

I have learned, that I cannot trust anyone... well not really anyone... but there are a few. Anyway. It is now knowing that those around me don't respect me enough to keep something so important to me, quiet, then I guess it's time to move on. Which is the next step in my life and my changed.

For those who know me...

I will forgive.. I will never forget though.

I am nice... but not that nice.

If this doesn't get better... we are gonna have issues...

Off yesterday afternoon.

Come in this morning and our email server is down.

No one in IT is up, awake, or in the office, so my tasks are, yet still, at a flipping stand still. Our server is not in this building (which I can definitely say) but... not even in this state, actually I can honestly say that I am not sure which of the other three states is actually IS in.

Either way, I have tried calling them all... and no one is in yet.

SUCKS!

This has been a long week. People on vacation. One in an accident and in the hospital. One person going back to school, one retiring.

Nothing like mass chaos and confusion.

I seriously wish I could have stayed in bed this morning.

it's a not so exciting day

Today I didn't babysit, she was sick.

I did business law homework, laundry, dishes, hardboiled eggs, and made tuna salad.

I took a nap and pulled articles from old magazines.

I have colored my hair and ate dinner.

My life is changing so I even worked on my resignation letter (more to come once its public).

Now I'm having a glass (or two) of Chianti and have watched: You've got Mail, First Wives club, Under the Tuscan Sun, and now Bottle Shock.

Guess its back to homework...

Gotta wonder... is this right... or am I just mistaken?

I am confused... help me here...

I work full-time. I have been back with this company over six years. I have not once been given an actual review... which is normally required for performance and raises... right?

Anyway, last week, I finally got my review... or should I say a Review"? Then again, maybe my first review? Okay, so... mind you, it's the middle of July... the year is 2012. My review covered January to December... the year 2011. Are we behind or what?

I am not sure about this, but since we have a new owner, we are all expected to have reviews. And then, the meeting started with "this review is for 2011... and you have come a long way since then... the statements in these areas are stock, based on the job... I did not write these... I give a rating of 1 to 5 and the system puts in the statements, so they do not accurately reflect what I want you to see..."  Okay, one more time here... is this wrong... or am I just really confused?

How do you honestly work this way... and keep staff morale up to a level where they don't want to tell you to go to hell?????

Taking a break

It's been a time since I have done any substantial postings. There has been so much going on.

The weather here has been unbearably hot... and I HATE hot weather. I would much rather have it sub-zero and wearings 40 layers of clothes. When I get warm and uncomfortable, I become... to be completely honest... a TOTAL BITCH!!! Heat and I do not see eye-to-eye and it is NOT my friend. I can only take so many clothes off and I still hate it.

I have been doing school work, so I am stressed. My son is on a trip, so I am lonely. I have a cat going through separation anxiety, so he has my sleep pattern is totally screwed up because he wants attention and then lays there and "cries" to me (at 2:30am, 3:30am, etc). The heat is taking it's toll on my mom, so I worry about her because she is stubborn and bullheaded (no idea where I get those traits from). I am still "in search of..." and that is still a slow and painful process... and I am getting frustrated there too. It's like everything thing. AARRGGHH!!!

I just haven't felt like me and don't feel like doing anything. So I am on a mental break... and a physical exhaustion. With the heat this past week, hitting the 90s and 100s, I have been to the gym twice and that was it... it is too damn hot to do that. The small pool in our backyard is even registering at 95-deg, so to hell with that being comfortable either.

Thank goodness it's Friday... I am ready to curl up and sleep the weekend away.

Hope everyone has had a good week. I will see you soon... with a better attitude... as soon as this heat breaks...

 

snack...

Peanut butter and sliced banana, sprinkled with granola.

Yum.... :)

my new recipe experiment

* Quinoa

* 3 egg whites

* Cubed chicken breast

* Spinach

* Grape tomatoes, sliced

* Fat free feta cheese

I beat 3 egg whites and put them in a pan. I then added the cubed chicken breast, scrambling the eggs as they cooked.

Once almost done, I moved all the egg into the middle of the pan and then placed the spinach and quinoa around the outside, heating it up and breaking down the spinach a little.

As the spinach started to cook down, I mixed everything together in the pan. I added the sliced tomatoes (I use the grape because they are small and not overly juicy). The tomatoes add some acid and then I mixed in the crumbled feta. The feta adds the "bite".

I don't cook too much longer, only to marry the flavors.

I put onto a plate and add a little more crumbled feta on top.

**MY FIRST COOKING "EXPERIMENT" WITH QUINOA... AND I THINK IT TURNED OUT PRETTY WELL... AND IT WAS FILLING**