24 April 2012
Went to the gym. Felt good until the cramp in the stomach.
I feel like hell. Trying to monitor my eating and being sure to exercise. My major problem is dinner at home. I can't control it, I can't make decisions on it. Someone else makes the meal... Someone who is set in her old-fashioned ways. The meals are not the healtiest, they come out of the freezer or a box.
I am frustrated and feel gross. I feel fat and ugly. I don't like anything about me and wish I could feel better.
I struggle and fight with my heart and soul. Tonight is bad for me. Tonight is depression and sadness.
I watch my breakfast and lunch. I know I can control those meals. Dinner is not an option. I am then trying to help my son stick to this and get healthy. I am trying so hard.
I am stressed and miserable today.